Right now...

I'm running the risk of sounding so cliche and cheesy. But I don't think I care enough not to post it. 

I just love being a mommy. I'm posting right now from my sweet Nora's glider at midnight. She woke up screaming for no apparent reason and when I came in she calmed right down, grabbed her blankie and lovie and crawled into my arms. Like it was exactly where she belonged. And it was!

I know the day will come where I can't fix everything with a song and a snuggle. I know the late night rocking with my little babes curled up on my lap or nighttime movies with a warm little jammied munchkin nuzzled on my lap are numbered. I know the "mama hold you" days with little fat arms reaching up to me to be held are short.

I don't want to forget any of it.

Not the snuggles and laughs. Tantrums and black beans all over the floor. The fat babies sprinting to jump into my lap or running to the door to see Daddy. I want to remember every mispronounced word and cute jumbled sentence. Every outing where I had to search for missing water cups & diapers. Every sweet sister hug and hilarious over the top fight. Every smile & big eyed expression. 

I don't want to forget my two tiny girls who feel so pretty when I get them dressed and do their hair, pointing out their pink shoes to everyone they see. The girls who love to rock their babies so sweetly and in the next breath are throwing toys and dumping out everything in site! 

I don't want to forget how much love my heart feels every time they succeed and how hard and helpless I feel when I just can't figure out what to do. I don't want to forget how humbling it feels to do it wrong so many times, but how great it feels when I get something right. 

I don't want to forget this season with Lance. There is so much joy within our walls it almost doesn't seem fair. There is lots of stress, never enough money and my cute clothes only debut about twice a week, but we are in a season of JOY! I don't want to forget. 

So I may post things like this from time to time because even in my short (yes SHORT) 29 years, I've learned that there are seasons of good and bad, hard and easy. This season is so good and so hard and my heart really just feels so full. 

That's all. :)