Control Freak?

Anybody else a control freak? I never considered myself one, however I think I may be! Because man oh man this 100% complete lack of a timeline for this adoption is starting to get to me! I've also never been much of a planner, but I typically do like to know the number of children I will have in 6 months. Or when i can expect to shell out the chunk of change for our referral fee. I was talking to Lance about putting the girls in Mother's Day out next fall and realized I didn't know if I would be a mommy of two or three at that point (surely 3). As I'm packing away summer clothes and high chairs I don't know what should be sold and what should be set aside. Because we aren't only in the dark about when we will get this child, but we don't know her age either! Do I save bottles? Do I keep out a swing? Who knows?? On the flip side, I know we are incredibly blessed to know we are going to be one of the next families they call and people would kill to be in the single digits on a wait list. But it's kinda hard. I rush to answer EVERY out of area phone call and have gotten stuck taking more surveys and chatting with more recruiters than ever! But we are living in an "any moment our lives could change" bubble and I'm not going to miss that call!!

So we wait. We trust God and we let go. Because there is nothing we can do but pray. So listen closely and if you hear (happy) screaming and crying in the dead of the night we have finally gotten a referral for our third littlest family member! How I love adoption so much and haven't even adopted yet is beyond me, but I LOVE it and am so glad God put us here in this spot and has brought us to (hopefully) the end of this waiting season and the beginning of a beautiful story with a new little Agan to call our own!! 

Stay tuned & please pray that the next out of area call I get isn't someone asking me to rate Nora's last experience at the pediatrician. I'm pretty sure the teenager that conducted the survey thought I was the rudest person ever!! 

And because I must....here is a shot of my little cutie patoots! And I must say they are doing muuuuuuch better this week as far as the whole defiance factor goes. I think my sweeties have returned. :) 

This is how Nora says "cheese"! Head cocked back every time!