A day in the life...

*****disclaimer....this is LONG and probably boring to 99.99% of readers. It's for me! 

A twin mom friend of mine did a "day in the life of a working mom of twins" post so I thought I'd do a day in the life of a stay-at-home mom of twins post. I do work Monday and Tuesday evenings, however I did the math and spend a total of 4% of my week away from the girls. So yes, I am claiming SAHM. :)

-Everyday I arise between 5:00-5:30 and give Zoe a bottle. It's the rare morning that she doesn't want to eat around 5am. I then, in an attempt to start the day off well with schedules, go in and feed Nora a bottle too. Lance gets up at 5:45 for work, so if they wake up close to his scheduled wake up time I usually toss him a bottle and have him go feed one. It's pretty funny each morning because he is always SO out of it and usually makes it to the kitchen with a bottle and then says something along the lines of "ok, now what am I doing and who am I feeding?"

-I then get back in bed until around 6:30am when I am summoned by one or both girlies. They usually wake up within about 20 minutes of each other. Nora is starting (knock on wood) to finally stop waking up at night so the mornings are a bit less treacherous now that she has slept through the night recently.

-Once the girls are up I change their diapers, put down a quilt for them to play on and get out their toys for the morning. Once they are happily playing I usually get myself a cup of coffee and sometimes a bowl of cereal. It's pretty funny lately however, because they are both crawling and pulling up on everything so my days of putting them in one spot and finishing a meal are pretty much over. So I usually get a few sips of coffee and cereal and am left with a half cold cup of coffee and soggy bowl of cereal after I am done chasing people, picking up knocked over jars of puffs, comforting both girls over and over after bumping their heads after attempting to pull up on the ottoman or crawling full speed ahead into a bar stool and changing a few diapers in between!

-We play pretty hard until about 7:30 and then we do breakfast. I usually feed them bananas or a squeezie with mixed fruit. I am now suspecting that Nora is allergic to gluten...add it to the list....and have stopped doing as much oatmeal. I did however find some regular oatmeal that doesn't have any of her suspected allergies and she did great. Zoe not so much, but that's ok.

-After breakfast we play some more and around 8:45 we do bottles and at 9am we do naps. Nap time can go one of two ways at our house. On a lucky day I can feed the girls and leave the less tired, more chipper, baby in the living room in an exersaucer or pack n play while I put the other down. But on the not so lucky days the baby left in the living room screams and screams until I get them and I am usually rocking one baby while another is crawling at my feet and often crawling right under the rocker and getting pinched and screaming more! It's quite the sight to see. Also, my sweet little Nora Beth doesn't really like to take a bottle anywhere but in her room in the dark with her sound machine on (ummm, yes she is a bit high maintenance) so I often have to feed her in her room which is way to long to keep Zoe alone so that's where the baby crawling all over the floor in the dark comes into play!

-The girls are napping champs and are usually both asleep by 9:05 and sleep until around 10:30, sometimes 11. On Monday  & Tuesday I am forced to be responsible and usually wash bottles and get everything ready for Betho's house Monday or my mom Tuesday and then get ready for work. I don't leave until 2pm, but it's usually my only down time. On Wed-Fri, I'm not gonna lie...this is the most glorious time of the day. I usually do a super quick once over of the house, pick up diapers and laundry and such, wash a bottle or two, and if it's been a bad night I get in our guest bed and go to sleep. This room is by the girls so I don't have to mess with the monitor. That's a whole other story, but Im not a huge fan of baby monitors. I just don't need to hear every peep! Anyway, on days when I am a bit more rested I usually just sit on the couch and watch tv and eat breakfast. Maybe check Facebook and Instagram for a minute and just kind of decompress. Oh, this is usually when I get out of my pajamas and brush my teeth for the day too! Ha!

-when the girls get up we play until about 11 and then do lunch. I feed them fruit or whatever I have thrown together the day before and they always gobble it right up.

-I then clean them off, wipe down all the highchairs and we play some more. We do a lot of playing if you can't tell. They love to read books and LOVE to play rough and be thrown up in the air or tickled. So we do a lot of that!

-If I have any laundry that needs to be done I usually try to do it while they are up so I'm not too loud while they are sleeping. Luckily, Lance does most of the laundry so I usually am just in charge of getting the dirty clothes to the laundry room and he washes everything in the evening. I am a pretty organized person with a pretty clean house but I am a failure 100% in life when it comes to laundry. I live out of piles. I actually had the thought that I have to get better before I raise three girls who will never know how to follow through with laundry. I will pretty much do ANYTHING else over hanging item after item up in the closet. I just really cannot do it. If you could only see my closet. It is a scary place.

 -At 12:30 pm we do bottles again and get ready for afternoon naps. This nap tends to be easier. Not sure why. They will usually sleep from about 1-2:30 but sometimes it's just form 1-2. This is when I do a for real once over of the disaster that we spent the morning making. I usually spend quite a bit of time crawling on my hands and knees scrubbing carrots off the floor, scrubbing the baby food maker, washing bottles, putting the toys in the bins, throwing away stray diapers, and I usually grab a little lunch too. On my work days I leave after I put them down for naps and it's really nice. I always go get a giant diet coke and something to eat and sit in my car for 15 minutes in silence and relax. On my non work days I usually get done cleaning stuff up just in time for one to wake up. 

 -Lately, I have been referring to the hours spent after this nap until bedtime as the "dark hours". I think it is her teeth, but Nora seems to only last until about 4pm and she is SUCH a grump until bedtime. She will sometimes take a short nap at 4 which helps, but usually she is just a bit of a toot until bed. Zoe does ok, but after about 4pm only wants to be held too so I kind of feel like I am being mauled by babies for the entire afternoon. However, I sure do love those little grouchy toots!

 -around 4:00pm they take another bottle and we usually go on an outing real quick or I load them up in the stroller and we go on a nice long walk. I have found that if we don't get out and do something this time of day it's kinda rough on everyone. Mainly me!

 -we get back at 5pm usually and start the bedtime routine. I usually feed them dinner, oatmeal and fruit, and then wash them off in the sink. We then do lotion and Jammie's and I get their bottles ready. Most nights I try to keep them happy until 6:00 or 6:15 when Lance gets home so he can help with bed. However, it's the rare night that they can make it happily until 6:15 and I usually have to let one scream while I put the more tired one down. It's not my favorite part of the day. The morning nap scenario usually replays in the evenings. But if I am on top of things I can usually start bottles at 5:30 and then I usually leave a couple ounces in each bottle since they are used to finishing their bottles in their rooms at night and leave one in the living room, contained of course, and do a quick version of bedtime with the first baby (e.g., rocking with their bottle and lovie in their room) and then come back out and get the next baby and get her down. Lance usually gets home in time to save the poor abandoned child alone crying in the living room so that's good. I usually text him on his drive home and tell him who needs to be put down, and where he can locate the bottle and when I get done with baby one he is usually already rocking baby two. 

 -we then clean up from the afternoon mess. We call it "reset" and then luckily have from about 6:30 on to ourselves. It's a great time of the day and we eat dinner and hang out and get things done. The early morning can be downright painful, but having the evenings to do whatever we want with is great. Well on weekdays, having babies who go to bed at 5:45 can kind of kill your social life on the weekends. But honestly, up until pretty recently, we were too tired to do much anyway! Thanks to Nora finally deciding to sleep, we are feeling more and more functional these days! :) 

Our days are long. But I truly could not imagine a more full, blessed life if I tired. Sure, I wish Lance didn't have to work as much and some days I wish I had a live in nanny to help me (ha!), but EVERY single day when I am rocking my girls to sleep I am overcome with so much joy I feel like a could burst! I am still in awe of this gift. I feel so blessed to have precious, perfect babies and that I get to rock a baby to sleep 6 times a day! Not many people get to do that and I am SO SO happy I do!! I am still not squeezing into my size 4 jeans and still have bags under my eyes everyday and let's not even get started on the state of my eyebrows or hair....but my heart is full 100% of the time and for that I don't think I will ever stop thanking God!! 

Jane.

I thought I would post my current thoughts on our adoption. It helps me to blog about feelings/fears and just general thoughts currently bouncing around in my brain from time to time.

Honestly, my feelings towards our adoption are still wonderful! Do I yawn just thinking of waking up multiple times a night when I just started getting some, key word some, sleep? Yes! Do I sometimes cringe just a tad at the thought of being driven back into our home for the bonding period after finally being able to comfortably venture out with my current two? Absolutely! Do I fear the change in dynamic? For sure! Do I worry about the unknown, genetic differences, and lack of medical history or knowledge? Sometimes I still do.

But as I was expressing this to Lance tonight we were going through scenarios of timelines and what it will look like with Z & N not being only children, and just talking through fears and concerns we couldn't stop smiling when we thought about HER! I would be straight up lying if I said having these two baby girls in my life hasn't made the adoption a bit more scary. It's been a huge mental change, requiring me to seriously have to stop and wrap my mind around this reality, 3 kids, not just 1! Two babies very very set in a routine and schedule and none to fond of their mom even walking into the other room. Will there be enough of me for all of them? I am responsible for protecting them. How will this affect them? It was one thing for Lance and I to dive into this, but they didn't have a say. But when we talk about this baby girl, she is ours. She is a part of us. I can't really describe it. But as scary as it can seem at times, it doesn't compare to how scary it seems NOT to get her.

This is a true fact. As I was praying through this today,  I asked God to show me what I needed to see. To give me encouragement and confidence in this choice we made so long ago. I opened up my bible and this was starting me in the face, highlighted in red. Not bookmarked, nothing. Ah....thank you Jesus. :)

John 14:15-21 NIV
 "If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever- the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him."

Chills.....yes. I needed this reminder. We are simply obeying what God has commanded of us. Plain and simple that is it. We are obeying God. We love God, and this was commanded of us. We make things so hard from time to time. But without fail, Gods word simplifies it. He makes it easy to understand and we make it hard.

The verse that also comes to mind is......"Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowledge him and He will make your paths straight."

So I will leave this up to God. He will sort it out. On my end, I will be waiting until I get to sleep through the night before bringing a third into the mix. I'm talking to YOU Nora Beth! ;) 

Can't wait....all in good time that is......to add our precious, prayed for, Already adored, little Jane to our family. 

7 months old!

Wow....didn't I JUST write a 6 month post!? How are my littles 7 months old!? Thank goodness for blogging because otherwise I wouldn't remember a thing and it has been so fun to look back at what they were doing each month because heaven knows I don't remember it! Sad yes, but true. 

This month has seemed to be a month of lots of change for the girls. They are seeming so grown up to me lately. I'm just going to list lots of boring facts about them so I can look back and remember....sorry readers!!

Zoe this month you:

-started trying to crawl! We have gotten a few legit lunges forward but you mostly just rock on your knees, or stand up on your feet with your booty in the air. It's pretty cute.

-started sitting up from a laying position. All of a sudden you just popped up from the floor onto your bottom. Again, pretty cute! 

-started lots of babbling. You now love to repeat "mamamama" over and over again. I know you don't have a clue what you are saying but I love the sound of "mama". I've been hearing a ton of different consonants this week from you. You will be an early talker I'm pretty sure! 

-started loving the sound of your loud shrill scream. You will sit and scream a joyful little screech until you are red in the face and have to catch your breath and start again. It usually scares your sister or at least makes her jump.

-started for real sleeping through the night. I actually can't pinpoint when you really started sleeping through the night but I also can't remember the last time you woke up at all. You are a great little sleeper. 

- you usually sleep from 6:45-7 or 7:30. Sometimes you wake up at 5:30 for a bottle and then go back to sleep until 7ish. You are a superstar sleeper. 

- you still love to be rocked to sleep and after you spend about 30 seconds fighting going down for bed or naps with ALL your might at all your high decibel glory, you relax and are out cold! Sometimes I swear you are in the exact same position we left you in 13 hours later! 

- you have pretty much started only taking 2 naps a day. If we happen to be in the car at just the right time you will drift for a minute. But regardless of how much you nap or don't nap you still go to bed around the same time. You are a predictable little baby. 

- you play appropriately with your little toys and are starting to grasp cause/effect. Is fun to watch you spin your little spin toy and wait for it to stop and spin it again. It's fun to watch you discover your little world. 

- you take a while to wake up from sleep. You have the most tired little face when you wake up and the pinkest little cheeks. However, the second we walk into the living room and you see your sister you come alive and know its playtime. You smile and wiggle for me to put you down to play with sissy! 

-you are extremely distractable. This was a huge problem when I was nursing and now is a big problem with the bottle. It's like you are on speed spinning your head in all directions, turning to any little sound, straining your head to look out the window, or at sisters toy, or the person talking in the kitchen. We pretty much have to let you sit completely upright and we have to just follow your head around with the bottle. The process is not fast!  Its mainly a concern on the few times I am not with you. You have to take 2 bottles a week from other people and you don't make it easy on them! 

-you are kind of "whatever" about solid food. I think you can take it or leave it. If I put a spoonful of food up to your face you will eat it. But I don't see much of a love for food yet. 

-you are taking 5oz sometimes 6oz bottles about 5 times a day and eating a couple times a day. But I can usually only get you to really eat solid food about once a day. You would rather chew on the spoon, or the tray or turn your head to look at the pattern on the high chair or look out the window.

- you are pretty much over the paci. We still put it in your bed, but you mostly use it as a teething toy and chew on the back of it. I'm not going to force it, I'm hoping we are one of the lucky few who seamlessly part ways with the paci. 

- your current favorite activity is to just crawl around and explore your toys. You are in more of an independent phase lately and seem to want to spend more time exploring your toys and environment than being held in my arms at all times. 

- you continue to be pretty leery of strangers. Just today you got swarmed at the hair salon and had a bit of a breakdown. I could see it building but couldn't get to you quick enough to stop it. You are overwhelmed by crowds at times and loud noises. Not to the point of freaking out or anything, but your daily life is pretty calm and you aren't around a whole lot of kids. 

- you are still big, I think about 20lbs, and are in 9-12 month clothes! 

- you are happy and content about 99% of the time. Lately when you get overtired you just get quiet and very calm. Not a whole lot of screaming. 

Nora this month: 

- you started sitting up from laying down. Your sister did it and you did it about 5 hours later.

- you are finally up on all fours but aren't quite crawling yet. You somehow get around though! You can fly all over your crib with you crafty little scooching and rolling! It's funny and spastic looking.

- you have become LOUD....you alternate from screaming, to growling, to babbling to laughing. I was trying to describe you to your daddy one day and said you were a "scrappy little spaz!" 

- you seem to be all over the place lately. Constantly bouncing in your bouncer or swatting at toys. You just seem hyper to me.

- you have a VERY chipper demeanor about you. You are just so happy to be alive. You love being in the middle of the conversation, love an excuse to laugh or smile and seem to just be waiting for the opportunity. You are SO smiley!

- unlike Zoe you bounce up on all fours the second I come in to get you from your nap. If you are laying down all I have to do is whisper "Nor-Nor" and you flip over and pop right up with the biggest smile on your face and start flapping your arms for me to pick you up. Once I do you are usually so thrilled you start shaking both legs and bouncing up and down. Also unlike your sister, you would be held all day. The way the two of you trade off personas each month is interesting. You continue to change and flip flop on who does what. 

- your are doing much better with night sleep. But I can count on two hands the amount of nights you have slept through the whole night, and that number is 7, ha! You will often sleep from about 8-4 and then eat and go back down until after 7. But you will more often get up around 2am for a bottle and then sleep until morning. You are by no means a bad sleeper, you just don't have it mastered quite like sister. Which I also want to add that I have heard SO many moms allude to the fact that babies sleep or don't sleep based on the parenting style. Not in our case. Zoe was sleeping through the night at 4 months and never needed help with it at all. We have had to WORK to get Nora not to wake up 5x a night. Our 1 night waking now is serious progress! 

-oh and most nights it takes you a good amount of crying or just talking to yourself to go to sleep. I tried my hardest not to let you cry, but I truly can't figure out how. You just seem to need to unwind or something. However, due to this you have been officially relocated to the guest room. It's really sad because the nursery was SO cute, and now your crib is missing. But it's on my to do list to make your new room cute and cozy too. I actually really like having more space in the nursery to fold laundry and such and we are in the process of making the study a guest room which will be great and it's much farther away from babies so now our guest won't have to walk on egg shells, afraid to unzip a suitcase! 

- you are a pretty super napper though. You nap from about 9-10 or 11 and 1-2 or 3. 

-we are in a funky place with you at night. You don't want to go down for a third nap, but are a grump without it. We are just in a transition phase right now, which is making the hours of about 5-7 not a pretty sight. We also can't quite figure out your bedtime. If we put you down at 6 you scream like it's too early, but if we keep you up until 7 or 8 you are in rare form. Between 7-8 seems like your natural bedtime, but we are still trying to figure out a way for you to be more of a happy camper up to bedtime. Because unlike your sister who just gets really quiet and observant, you scream and flail around! 

- your favorite playtime activity is jumping all around in your jumparoo. It seems to give you so much joy!

- you love love love eating. You are thrilled when we put you in your highchair and the only food you have protested so far is peas. You bang your little hands on the tray and pretty much are opening your mouth for your next bite before you are done with your previous one. I think it's safe to say that you much prefer solid food to formula, which is probably because you are on a revolting hypoallergenic formula. Poor baby. 

- I think your eyes are officially brown. And your hair is definitely very dark. Your hair is also starting to curl up when it gets wet. You definitely stand out as having your own look among your sister and cousins who all seem to favor each other with their bright blue eyes, fair skin and light hair. You get to be unique with your darker completion! 

- you weigh exactly 19lbs as of yesterday at your ear infection follow up appointment. However, you seem tiny to me! 

- you are also over the paci and just like to play with it too. You have finally taken to your lovie which is good. 

- you take four or five 4oz bottles a day. This month you are none to interested in having anything to do with a bottle. I think it slows you down too much and I don't think you love your new formula. Unless you are starving it takes us a couple tried to get you to finish a bottle. Which probably attributes to you still waking up at night to eat. It is an even bigger task for someone else besides me or lance to give you a bottle. You spend a total of 8 hours away from us each week and the bottle report is never good for at least half of the time! 

-I would say you are happy 90% of the time, with the 10% grumpy revolving around bedtime. Hopefully this next month will bring some more predictability in your sleep needs! 

-Nora you are a little ray of sunshine, with a permanent smile! 

One new, unfortunate development this month has been illness. NO exaggeration, the day after the girls first full day without breast milk they got colds. It started with Nora, then a week later went to Zoe, then Zoe ended up with an ear infection, then Nora ended up with an ear infection, then Zoe's ear infection didn't respond to the antibiotics and she ended up with a double ear infection and a sinus infection. This all started the day of their six month appointment and we just got the all clear on the ears and sinuses 2 days ago. Then when I felt like I could finally breath a sigh of relief that night Zoe woke up with diarrhea and 102 temp and then Nora followed with projectile vomiting. This was just yesterday. So if you are doing the math it has been a straight month of illness. To say I regret stopping nursing them would be the understatement of the century. And for all you mommies who beat yourselves up because your littles get sick from daycare....don't! It happens to stay at home kids too! Mine are a prime example!! It has really been tough. And I have felt pretty guilty about stopping nursing. But I suppose it's now or when they turned one and everyone who hasn't yet been sock gets sick. But I am praying that this month we have healthy babies! 

But we are happy and loving life in our little corner of life! It gets better and better each day!! I think I'm finally to the point of wanting the freeze time! They are at such a fun age and we are truly blessed!! :) 

My grocery shopping buddies

Bright eyed beautiful baby

Crazy hair with a little left over milk on her face from her crazy eating style! 

Baby dedication Sunday

Me and my little Nora Beth 

Cuties today on their 7 month birthday 

Daddy is home....hallelujah praise The Lord! I love being home with them but I'm with them 6-6 and it can be a LONG 12 hours! 

Bundled for the cold! Cuteness I must say. 

Twin mom dinner

Last week I went to a little get together with other twin mommies in the area. It was really fun and I left with a bit of a new perspective on parenting twins. After talking with all the other mommies I realized I was the only and I mean ONLY mom who doesn't keep their littles on the same schedule pretty much no matter what.

I started out this way. If one ate both ate, if one was up both were up and somewhere along the way, maybe around 4-5 months, I just kind of let them pave their own path. We ended up with Zoe waking up around 7am, Nora waking up around 8:30am. Thus, naps were occuring for someone ALL day long around here, bedtimes were spanned about an hour and a half and if I ever needed to leave the house someone was always missing a nap and fussy! I was always feeding one and having to write down who ate when because Zoe would eat at 7, Nora at 9, Zoe again at 10, Nora at 12....see my point! :) 

Anyway, I left that dinner and decided that I was going to take back my life, even if just a little bit! Who are we kidding, I won't ever truly have my life back with two soon to be three baby girls (and I wouldn't have it another way I might add) but I decided a change was in order! 

Zoe is completely over 3 naps a day and is pretty much the easiest baby on the planet. With no work, no sleep training, nada, she sleeps 12-13 hours a night, naps from 9-10:15 and again from 1-3:15. She then happily plays until 6:45 and drifts off to sleep without a hitch. Nora...umm bless her little heart. She is more of a spirited soul! I forgot to mention that Nora was insisting on a 5 or 6pm nap for about 20 minutes lately and wakes up and stays up until 10:00pm! Not ok when Zoe is out cold by 6:45! So I decided that I was going to keep Nora up and make her skip her third little nap. Hoping that she would just go to bed at an earlier time and be more on track with Zoe. 

Well, it was a miraculous thing and it actually worked. Nora powered through and skipped her third nap and went to bed the first night at 8:45 then 8:00 and last night went down at 7:30! I have been stretching her to keep her up until 1pm so she naps later and the past couple days she napped until 3:00 and was perfectly fine until bed. However, staying up until a 1pm nap is still a little hard for her. :( 

But the past three days I have had 9-10am and 1-3pm TO MYSELF!! Like, rush to wash bottles, brush my teeth, do my work out, fold some laundry and then sit on the couch with a cup of coffee and watch Duck Dynasty TO MYSELF time! This is a far cry from the serial napping, baby always up, baby always needing something while the other was being fed or put down! It's been great and I think Nora will catch on here completely in the next few days and be able to easily make it to her 1pm naptime! 

So thanks twin mommies for the reality check!! I think I needed it!! :) 

Sunday night blues

I love the weekends. I love lance being here to help with the girls. I love getting to spend one on one time rocking one to sleep, not worrying about the lone baby crying in the living room. I love having a partner in bottle washing, dish washing, clothes washing....get then point with the washing!? I love when meltdowns begin being able to say, "ok...you rock her and I'll hold her". I love only carrying one car seat to the car, dressing one baby, and changing one babies diapers. 

See a trend? 

Every weekend I seem to forget how to do it alone, and then Monday comes and I learn all over again!

I have no greater joy in my life than caring for my girls. I couldn't ask for a more blessed, full life if I tried. 

BUT, sometimes is hard to make the shift from constant help to 6am-6pm solo duty! 

Oh well, bring it on week!! By Friday we will know how to do it again, then forget again and start this whole thing over!! :) 

Thought I'd throw in an old school pic. Now at this age, I most definitely did NOT have things under control by myself. I think I called my mom 100 times a day...begging her to spend the night! But oh my goodness, the preciousness of this picture kills me! Thank you God for weekends spent enjoying my family. I am blessed! 

I've been obsessing......I know!

So, yes I am a typical first time mom. And yes, I have been slightly freaking out about my children's first illness. I have always been a weirdo about sickness. I don't really get sick much, but when I do get sick  I tend to think I am probably dying. ;) 

Anyway, we introduced food to the chicas a couple weeks ago and they were loving it. Especially Nora. On Tuesday evening my mom was with the girls and she said that Nora hated her food. I thought it was wierd and then the next day, she didn't eat a bite. She then woke up around 1am and I was kinda bummed since her sleep had gotten SO great. I went in to pat her and could (pardon my grossness) hear the snot! It was out of control. And she was up ALL night because she couldn't breath. The next day it got worse and worse and man is it ever stressful to have sick twins! Nora needed so much attention, and pretty much needed me holding her at all times and couldn't sleep. However, my little 6 month old other baby girl isn't quite old enough for me to hand the remote in times like these and say "Go crazy" I need to take care of your sister. SO, I did my best. But Nora didn't sleep much at all and pretty much the only naps she took were in the car. I actually drove around for 2 hours one day to make sure she got a morning nap. Has anyone ever been to Needville? Ha! 

Next thing I know, and I know this will just be our life, but I hear the same sniffles and coughing on the monitor and Zoe is sick. And so far, Nora has been a much better patient! Zoe acts like we are trying to kill her every time we wipe her nose! Oh Zoester. But it was the same story, only Zoe got sick over the weekend so it was way less stressful! She is still in pretty bad shape, but hopefully she gets better soon so I don't have to do this all over again this week by myself. 

But that's all part of it right!? Lance has convinced me that they will infact live to see another day and I am just praying God heals their little bodies soon. I have racked my brain on where they picked this up. Call me crazy, but I think it's from chewing on the tables at Gringos. Hehe! I've tried really hard to protect them from illness, but I guess it was bound to happen. We hang out with friends and most have kids over 1. So I guess now they are building up their little immune systems. 

In other news I am no longer nursing. Lots of reasons why, but the point is I am done. It was hard at first and I cringed with every bottle of formula they drank. However, now I feel great. And in very very exciting news, we tried Nora on a sample of a prescription formula because her eczema was still awful and after 24 hours she was a new child!! I mean the girl has a new set if skin!! We have been rubbing her sweet little arms, legs and face all weekend in amazement!! She is so soft, and smooth and perfect! She was perfect when she was bumpy too...but she has got to feel better. I even put her in a onsie with not pants yesterday and no itching! This is huge...I usually have to cover her legs because she scratches until she bleeds. Based on this dramatic change, it can very likely be concluded that Nora is allergic to dairy & soy. Our insurance even pays for the formula which is huge because out of pocket it was going to cost us hundreds per month! I no longer cringe at the formula. I scoop that powder in her bottle with a smile on my face and cheerfully shake it up and smile as she gulps it down! I am just so happy she feels better! I suppose we will worry about what a dairy allergy means later. But for now we are celebrating this exciting change! She has also slept about 2 hours later each day since we started. Not sure if this is from less itching or her illness but I am just so happy we seem to have found the key to her comfort! 

Well, I suppose I should head to bed. It's only 10:30 and I've already had to rock Zoe back to sleep 3x and suction her nose. Plus, Nora seems to have liked getting picked up every time she wiggled for a week and I have a feeling she may have regressed a bit with sleep. Actually, I hear a munchkin now! I must say, this week has made me feel so honored that God chose me to be a mommy! I get to be the one to wipe noses, and give medicine and sing to sleep. I get to be the voice that calms and the person who wipes tears. I know I am a tad mushy when it comes to them, but I am just in awe of this gift God gave me and this role he is trusting me to fill! I love these babes SO much! I love to get to be the mommy! Although, I am the tired mommy lately that's for sure! 

Ok, off to pat some little bottoms! :) 

Nora sleeping in her car seat. This was the only way we could get her to fall asleep! 

Me and Zo Zo shopping for sisters medicine

Zoe "steaming" in the tub

Bottle time in the sauna :)

First trip to buy a weeks worth of baby food! 

Nora her first night...she was in bad shape :(

Sicky head baby girl 

Mommy trying her best to force a smile out of the little munchkin 

My new babysitter the Camry! This is a life saver when you have sick twins and can't put both to sleep! 

Starting to feel a tiny bit better

"Mom, for real stop with the pictures!"

6 months!

I am posting a few days early because both are napping at the same time and who knows when that will happen again!

But the girls are 6 months!! They are all of a sudden little people with personalities and are just so precious! They are the smiliest little things and are trying so hard to be "on the move". Both girls are sitting up unassisted for a few seconds at a time before toppling over. They have mastered the art of rolling both ways which is a lifesaver for us! We were going in and flipping them at night for weeks and weeks and I was about to go insane....for real! They love to grab at their toys and like to play on their tummies and try to crawl. Their little bodies have all the motions down but they can't quite get their tummies off the ground to actually crawl. It makes Nora very very angry! The second I put her down she flips to her tummy, and then sets her sight on a toy and tries to crawl over but can't. She then screams until I pick her up or put the toy in her hand! On that note, I'll update on Nora....then Zo can have a turn!

My little Nora. We love you so much. You get cuter and cuter every day and this month you seem to have transformed from our little Budda blob baby to a little girl! You can sit up like a champ and sometimes I can't believe how big you seem. You love to laugh and love to play with your toys. You have unfortunately gained a new nickname this month and that's "little HM" aka High maintenance! You are a touch cookie some days. You want to play on the floor, but are very annoyed that you can't crawl. You currently require being held or being in a toy that keeps you upright. Your short little fuse just can't handle your current developmental stage! I am looking forward to when you can see a toy and just go get it! We did "sleep training" with you this month and this was something I swore I'd never do! Not to label our parenting because who are we kidding we are just winging this day by day, but for lack of a better explanation we kind or do the whole attachment parenting thing with you guys. I kind of don't believe in sleep training, however I also don't believe in being a Zombie mommy who can't properly care for her children so sleep training it was. We did the Ferber method and you fought it hard. Like hard hard hard!! The first night we went in every 20 minutes to calm you down for almost 2.5 hours!!! It was misery. And contrary to what most people report it took you about 14 days to get it. However, now you are doing awesome!! You are sadly a night pooper so I still have to go in and change diapers nightly, but we have finally kicked the "mommy I am going to scream until you feed me 5 times a night habit!" Your teeth are also starting to show a bit through your gums and I can tell it is going to be any day that they pop through. This will be cause for celebration!! Nora you love people and really like to be in the middle of the conversation. You flash this adorable little closed mouth smirk at us about 100 times a day and it melts my heart! You love mommy and daddy but also love your family and friends too! You will happily play in someone else's arms as long as you can look over every now and then and see us. You adore your sister. It's too much! I snap about a million pictures a day of you smiling at her, crawling on her, and holding her hand!! Your are our little sweet pea and we couldn't love you more!

Zo Zo.....you continue to be the most laid back, chill little thing! You literally go most days without even a fuss. No exaggeration. You will wake up in the morning and smile for every waking second. It's amazing! I have truly never seen a happier baby!! You are very very tall. You are heavier and taller than most of your 11-12 month old friends. You don't look 6 months old! You love to play on the floor and like sister, wish you could crawl. You are close little munchkin, I can tell! You are teething and lately always have one little finger in your mouth that you chew on and the amount of drool you can produce is crazy! You have been our awesome sleeper from day one, but are now doing what your sister used to do and has since stopped. That's the hard thing about twins! We aren't excited to have to "sleep train" another baby girl! But you scream out for us multiple times a night lately and it's pretty hard to calm you down without waking up your sister! But you will get over the hump too I'm sure of it! Zoester, you continue to love mommy and daddy and have started to get pretty concerned when you can hear me but dont see me. Most times if I am in the house you have to have me in your sight. Usually I put Nora down first for naps and leave you in the living room playing in your exersaucer....lately I have to sneak out quietly and then you don't seem to mind. However, if you can hear me singing to Nora you scream from the other room! It's pretty sad and I haven't quite figured out how to do naps without always leaving one of you alone. I'm pretty sure there is no solution and you will just have to accept it sweet girl! You have been a smiler all your life, but this month we finally started to hear real laughs from you. We love it so much!! Zo you are perfect, and more and more fun every day! 

Hers what else you are up to:

Sleep: you guys have been fighting me on bed time bad! Well, not really fighting but all you want to do is go down around 5:30! No matter how late I put you down, you wake up at 5:30 and want to go back down at 5:30pm. So far all that "keeping you up" does is make for a fussy, hard next day! This has been very very hard to say the least. This has me doing morning time, all naps, all feedings, all baths and bedtime routine all by myself since Dad doesn't get home until 6! We are in the midst of trying to figure this out. But some tears have been shed on my part lately because I am very overwhelmed and exhausted doing everything by myself. It's hard, and a little bit lonely. The joy in the daily things you guys do, like baths, and first solid food and things like that are dampened a bit when you dont have anyone to share it with. It's been hard. You have fortunately started sleeping better, especially Nora and we have had a few nights with no wakings. We are still working towards "sleeping through the night" though! 

Eating: you are taking 5 bottles a day and have oatmeal sometimes. I haven't consistently started the twice a day food thing mainly because it's hard to add one more thing to the evenings right now since I'm trying to get everyone down by myself.

Size: we haven't been to you official appointment yet but I know you are both the bigger side! I'm excited to see the exact stats!

Life, continues to be so much fun with the girls! However, if I am being completely honest this month has probably been the hardest. Having two babies pretty much keeps you tied to the house. When I do decide to try to venture out, it can go great or end in disaster and that's hard to deal with alone in public hehe! I am hoping to find a friend soon that lives close by and can just go on walks with us or do quick, no fuss things! I have two sweet friends that come to my house every Thursday with their littles and it's means so much to me!! I know this is just a season and I don't want to wish it away, but it can be hard to spend so much time at home with babies and not really have an outlet to get out and have some fun sometimes. I had hoped to do ladies bible class but it just wasn't possible right now, and I try to do playgroup but it falls at nap time and it's just too hard to deal with melting down babies alone. I'm trying to stay positive and accept that this season is just one that is going to be spent at home, and I am going to try my best to soak in the time with my girls and not look at it as being lonely but look at it as time to spend uninterrupted with my two angels. I know I will blink and it will be over and I don't want to look back and feel like I wished away this phase of their little lives! I am enjoying every ounce of them and am so thankful I spend my days with my two little bundles! But I have been praying that God will send me a friend in a similar boat! I know he will! 

Other than that we are just trucking along, our new normal is pretty much constant business with short moments of calm. We are pretty much in "go" mode all the time and are used to it! We love it! We love our girls, and are so thankful for the 6 months we've had with them!! Can you even believe ANOTHER baby girl will be joining the Agan clan someday!? Ha! I kind of can't....but of course am ecstatic!! I told Lance once I was sleeping through the night for 2 straight months we could seriously start talking about our little JJ! So if these chicks want a sister they need to shape up soon!! :) 

That's all for now....off to bed at 9:15! :) 

Lately

So my girls have this weird thing that they do. It's really actually kind of a phenomenon. No exaggeration they have a wonderful, perfect day where all naps go well and they sleep well at night and no one fusses, every other day. It's like they are biologically wired to be perfect angels every other day. They aren't awful on the off day, but sleep is usually a bit of a struggle and we have night wakings and stuff. It's weird. Anyway, we are on a good day so I thought I would blog for a sec while they nap. 

Here's what is currently bouncing around in my head:

-I'm loving the reduced humidity. The girls and I have enjoyed swinging on the porch swing lately. It's like a miracle cure for fussing and is a huge sleep inducer for them. I'm glad that now we can enjoy the outdoors without melting and dodging wasps!

-I am chopping my hair off tomorrow. I woke up a couple days ago and literally couldn't stand another inch of nasty long hair hanging in my face. I am so over brushing spit up out of my hair and don't have time to blow dry and straighten it so it always looks disgusting! Not to mention, I am constantly pulling long strands of hair out of the girls hands. I have been growing my hair for a long time and thought I would love it once it got really long. However, all of a sudden I am done. I'm going back to short hair with bangs and will probably up the level of blonde. I also looked in the mirror yesterday and thought it was much to brown hehe! :) 

-Zoe is officially done nursing. She still takes breastmilk from a bottle, but won't nurse. It's my fault. I have been pumping a lot during the day but was always really good about nursing in the morning and before bed. Well, this past week, and I really don't even know why, I have been pumping in the mornings too while the girls played and I drank my coffee, and realized that I hadn't nursed the girls in a week. I think it's because they have been waking up so happy so I thought, why nurse. If I pump I can sit here and chill for 10 minutes and drink some coffee. Well, last night I tried to nurse her and she went ballistic! Like top 5 of all time in her life! I've since tried about 10x. Yep, we're done. 

-Nora wakes up every night, well morning I guess, at 1:30ish and 5:30ish. I know she is hungry at 1:30 but at 5 she will eat for like 2 seconds if nursing, or take an ounce of a bottle and then just chew on the nipple. That's all it seems to take to pacify her. However, if we try to sooth, or let her cry for a bit, or pat, or rock or ANYTHING else than offering food, she just escalates to hysterical. I'm at a loss for real! 

-I feel like when the girls are sleeping I am constantly cleaning, doing laundry and organizing and it never ever ever looks clean!! I guess it's just not meant to be right now!

-Lance is super dad. I mean for real. He works 10 hour days, and two nights a week pulls double duty since I work Monday and Tuesday evenings. I have yet to hear a complaint! He gets even less sleep than me if you can imagine that because nighttime feedings are a million times quicker if each of us just grab a baby and pop a bottle in by heir mouth. If I take the time to feed one, the other gets so upset and it's hard to calm them back down to sleep. I do both sometimes, and am SO ready for Lance to be off the hook for feeding duty.

- On a similar note, with Lance being gone 12 hours a day I am realizing how I absolutely could not do this without my family! They have been saints. My parents may just be the most selfless people I have ever met. Seriously! They offer me so much support in so many ways. My mom gets this twin life, and is truly so wonderful and helpful and just such a great friend! My sister is too!! Just today Betho called and asked how I was doing. I am seriously batteling a cold and was up all night with Nora and we have no food. No joke, 30 minutes later breakfast appeared on my porch. No need for me giving her my order or anything. It was exactly what I would have gotten myself. And THEN, without asking my dad dropped off a bag of food my mom had fixed up from their house for lunch! Same thing, my exact favorite lunch. I'm eating it now! 

-I am still just loving life. Most days are wonderful and some days, like today, are pretty hard. But I just love my girls, my husband, and my friends and family! We are blessed! 

 (Blog didn't get posted on the day I started...so we are on our hard day...hehe) 

5 months

Girlies you are 5 months old!! Such big girls!! 

So let's see, what have you been up to lately!? 

Zo Zo: You are a big girl. Not quit sure what you weigh but you seem to be chubbier and taller every time I look at you. Daddy went out of town for a week, and thought you looked bigger in just 5 days! You love to stand up and are very strong. You love to grab at anything within your reach and put everything in your mouth. You roll both ways, but would prefer to hang out on your side. I get it, I'm indecisive too! You can pull from laying down to standing straight up with very little help from us. It's actually kind of amazing how strong you are for a little 5 month old baby. Every time we have people over they watch you and say, "Man she is SO strong". I have a feeling your little will is going to be every bit as strong too. You like things on your terms! You love the exersaucer and have started hating the swing. Anything that makes you lay on your back annoys you right now. You want to sit up SO badly, but can't quite get it by yourself yet. You are such a happy girl. You love me and daddy and it makes me happy. You smile the second you hear us talk! You are very very content and really don't cry much at all. You pretty much spend most days playing and smiling and just looking around for me to talk to you. Zoester, you are the best and we love you so so much!! 

Nor Nor: You are a big girl too, but much shorter than your sister. The difference in your size seems to be getting much more significant as far as height goes. Your little sister seems to be towering over you these days. Every night you seem to gain another pair of pjs that don't even start to fit her and fit you like a glove. It's funny...and unnerving to this mommy who likes you to match every day. Not loving that you are in 6 month jammies and she is in 9 month jammies! You are still struggling with eczema but don't seem to be itching now that we smother you in creams and aquaphor daily. You are a permanent slime ball!! You are rolling both ways too and won't stay laying on your back for more than 2 seconds when we put you down on the floor to play. I have never seen a baby flip so fast, and it's funny because for the longest time I was sure my tummy time efforts with you were a waste of time because you would not lift you head. Now that cute little head pops right up all cute and strong! You are a smiling machine and are a laugher!! You love to laugh and squeal, and cackle. It's is so easy to get you to laugh. I love it. You love to grab at toys too and love to be standing up! You are pretty much addicted to your crib and when you are tired you don't care too much for long rocking sessions with mommy. You prefer to be put in your sleep sack, given your lovie and paci and be left along. It's kind of sad, however your other half is NOT as easy to get down for naps so I am thankful you are always easy to put down. As easy as you are to put down in your crib....you are literally impossible to deal with when you are ready for a nap and we aren't at home. It is truly stressful. You would scream in the car for hours I think if we didn't get you home. It is shrill, and hysterical, and really one of the worst sounds ever. However, the second we get home and I put you in your crib you stop. Instantly. It's really crazy. Your particular nap time behavior is pretty much the only hard thing we deal with right now. You are perfection to us! Your sweet chubby face is just too much and I could kiss it 1,000 a day!! We love you little Nora Beth!!

Girls, you are also both getting better with sleep. You have been waking up at 12am to eat for months now and I finally got so tired of drifting off only to be woken up an hour later, that we now just feed you right before we go to bed. You usually then sleep (well go without eating) until morning. However, no joke Nora, you wake up every morning at between 2:30-4:30 screaming. All I have to do is replace the paci or let you eat for like 1 minute...but if I don't go in you will cry for an hour until you wake up your sister. We love you tons, but you have some high maintenance tendencies! Both of you have been going to bed around 7:30-8 and sleeping until 7:30-8 with the late night feeding and usually some middle of the night randomness. The middle of the night randomness is what I am hoping to nix here pretty soon. You take 5-6 bottles a day now. I am pretty much just pumping now. Since you and your sister wake up about 30 minutes off of each other the nursing was just getting to be too much and I wasn't willing to wake up the other sleeping baby. I am finally learning that as a mom whatever works for us is what's best. And for us, that has turned out to be pumping and giving the babies a little wiggle room to keep an independent schedule. 

You are both napping like champs and take 2 long (1.5-2 hour) naps, one in the morning and one early afternoon and then catch another hour or so nap in the evening. 

I am still dreaming if the day that we put you in your room and don't see you again until morning. Actually, I will even take the 10:30 feeding, if the night waking would stop! I know it's coming. We have had ONE glorious night where we put you down and you woke up 12 hours later. So now I know it's biologically possible! :) 

However, you are doing great and I probably can't expect much more at this point than a nine hour stretch. You are both big girls and I know it takes a lot to fill those tummies and I'm not a big fan of giving huge bottles....we have spitters for sure....so we will just spread out your feedings for now and hope you can handle bigger bottles in the near future so we can spend the DAY eating and the NIGHT SLEEPING!! 

Little nuggets, we truly love you more than you will ever know!! What a joyful, blessed, exhausting, fun, happy 5 months it's been!! 

Smiles

Just when I think it can't get any better it does! I remember when we were setting up the nursery and putting up the cribs I told Lance that I couldn't wait until one morning when I would walk into their pretty lavender room, look into the cribs, and see two smiling faces up at me!

Then the babies come and reality sets in! No one smiles for a while, and you are awaken out of a foggy 2 hour "nap" by screaming babies while you rush to try to get the life size nursing pillow set up while the screams get louder and louder. We lived that scenario for months and months.

But now, now my dream is happening and I am soaking up every last drop of it! In the mornings I usually see two little people perched up on their elbows just looking around talking. Then, when they see me the giant ear to ear smiles come! It.Is.The.Best.Feeling.In.The.Whole.World!

As exhausted as I still am, thanks to my little night owls, I cant help but smile every morning at 7:30 when my little Nora summons me, followed by her sister 15 minutes later. Now I take chipper little girls out of bed and they play on the floor while I pour my coffee and brush my teeth. We then leisurely get all set up for "breakfast" and it is just so wonderful!

I love love love love it!! I love love love being a mommy. I love rocking my babies to sleep. I love dressing them each day. I love ALL of it! I even find myself smiling as I am washing bottles thinking, "Man, I never thought I would be here....washing bottles for MY two perfect baby girls!" It is still SO hard because I am SO tired and I am beyond ready for them to get into a more predictable nap pattern so we can start to venture past our front porch without the fear of public humiliation. But I will be patient. I will soak in the long naps with my girls in my arms, I will soak up all the smiles, and I will try to freeze time so I never forget our long, quiet days together.

So, when I get stressed that my living room looks like a day care, or that it's 2:30pm and all I have eaten is a spoonful of peanut butter...I will try my best to stop and thank God for the life I am currently living. I have been praying for this life for years, and I will take all of it. Even the bad and annoying and tiring parts!

Thank you God for making me "Mommy"!

Lately

Man...people aren't lying when they say "it goes by so fast". I feel like just when my girls hit one "phase" they are going into the next. They are exploding with personality, laughing, smiling and are just such a joy to be around. They are doing so much better with naps and right now I can count on at least two 1.5-2 hour naps a day and a 45 minute or so nap in the evening. It really makes ALL the difference in parenting when you can count on a few predictable moments of rest in the day. The girls seriously KILLED it with "sleep training!" We bought sound machines and started separating them at naps. I kind of cancelled life for a few days and just waited for the girls to look sleepy, rocked them one at a time until they were drowsy and then put them down for their naps. Nora probably cried a total of 5 minutes the whole week. She was born loving her bed. Zo Zo did awesome too but we did have a few naps where we had to "cry it out" for a few minutes. However, I timed the screams and the longest she ever cried was 12 minutes! Before this new structured nap time I was rocking the girls at the same time until they fell asleep and then I was either stuck in the glider for 2 hours, or woke them upon transfer to their beds and then had to deal with fussy, woken up babies. This newfound ability to place a baby into bed after 5 minutes of rocking is changing my life!! I never want to give up rocking the girls, but I am happy that on days where I just need to get things done, I can quickly get them down for naps and move on with my day. I think the sleeping with the girls in the glider habit started when I was so sleep deprived I slept every time they did and then the girls just got used to it and it was a hard habit to break. But I am happy to report they have both been extremely predictable with their little daily routines. Lately like clockwork (this is for me to look back on...feel free to skip) they have been: -Wake at 8am -eat/play -napping from 8:45-10:45 -eat/play -napping from 12:30-2:30 -eat/play -napping from 430-5:30 (this is a struggle of a nap for Zo Zo...not sure why...I think she may just be super tired) -no nap -bed at 7:45 Of course there is a variance of about 15 minutes since they are different people and all....but it's pretty close to right on the money these days! They also slept straight from 7:45-8:15 last night without a peep!! It was a strange feeling. Lances alarm went off at 5:45 and we both woke up confused. Lance just assumed I got up an fed them and I literally thought I must have just forgotten I got up and then actually got a little worried and went in to check that everyone was breathing! Yep, everyone was alive. So we officially had out first "sleeping through the night" at 4.5 months! They have done long stretches here and there and often go about 8 hours. But we have never come close to a 12 hour stretch! I'm a realistic person and honestly we keep expectations pretty low around her so I am fully prepared that this may have just been a lucky night...but I'm thankful to know its biologically possible for them to survive that long without eating hehe!! (Ok...I have to add that while writing this one cried at 12:30 and then the other at 1:15 so we still aren't that consistent yet I guess!). On another note, I had my first day of work today. I am working 9 hours a week with 5 hours being on Monday and 4 on Tuesday. My Mom is coming to my house Tueadays and we have a sweet nanny coming coming Mondays. I'm working 2-7 & 2-6 so Lance is with them for a couple hours before I get home. I was kinda depressed to leave today and my mom was amazing and followed my pages of directions to a T!! It was great knowing she was with them. She is amazing and literally does exactly what I ask and even calls to clarify tiny things like kinds of lotions to use and exact details about things to make absolute sure she is doing it exactly like I would. She gets how important keeping a schedule is with twins and I am so appreciative! Lance did great too!! When I got home both girls were happily playing in their Jammie's ready for bed. Nora was all lotioned up an itch free too! I am blessed!! :) So that's about all that's up with us! Ill be posting a 5 month before too long....crazy!!!

4 months!

Our little angels are 4 months old!! We just got home from their official 4 month visit and they are both doing great. We made a plan to treat Nora's eczema and I have decided to continue to nurse for now and hope we can get a hold of the problem with some more diet modifications and medication. However, if nothing works we will go to formula. 

Nora is in the 75% in height, weight, and head circumference. She weighs 14.5 lbs, is 25 inches long and her head measurement was 16.5 inches. 

Zoe is in the 95% in height and 75% for her weight and head. She weighs 4.11 lbs, is 26 1/4 inches long and her head measured 16.5 inches.

So, the girls are about the same weight and have the same head size but Zoe is a lot taller! Which explains why Nora weighs less but looks much chunkier than little Zoester! 

Both girls are starting to babble a lot. Zoe must be the most social little creature to ever live. She never stops talking. She babbles herself to sleep, she babbles in her car seat, she babbles in her swing and babbles at her reflection. She gets SO excited when she makes eye contact with someone and realizes they want to talk to her. It.Is.So.Cute!! She is the kind of child who will skim right over a nap if anything is going on. She has to be in her bed in the dark to sleep. She just loves people.

Nora is not as much of a "people person". Nora loves one on one time with mommy singing or reading. She loves to smile at Zoe and has started cackling the cutest little squeaky laugh! However, Nora loves her sleep and unlike Zoe we have to make sure our little Nora gets her nap ON TIME or life is no bueno for anybody!! Nora's little smile and soft voice will melt your heart. It is just so sweet, but she is definitely our more serious child! 

It's interesting having twins because you can see two such different little personalities emerge. We originally thought Nora was really laid back compared to Zoe, but now I'm not sure. They both have their moments of freaking out and both have their sweet moments. Zoe has definitely evolved into a baby who can roll with the punches a bit better. She can handle a late nap, or hunger pretty well. Nora used to be that way but they seem to have switched personas this month! I guess we'll see if they switch back again. 

As far as their motor skills and things go they are both rolling some. Interestingly, Nora rolls from her tummy to her back and Zoe rolls from her back to her tummy. However, neither baby cares to do it much at all. Nora sleeps on her tummy and has been rolling to her back in the night and is none to happy about it! However, yesterday I went to get her up and she was on her back smiling at me! Progress!! 

Zoe pretty much always wants to be "standing" and looking around. When on her back she is always trying to sit up and is pretty annoyed I think that she can't sit up. She is trying so hard. Shes done it for a few seconds before falling so far. Yesterday, she even supported her weight on her legs and held onto the ottoman for a out 15 seconds! At 4 months! She's really a strong little thing! 

Nora is finally supporting her weight on her legs. She had earned the nickname "little blob" because every time we tried to get her to put weight on her legs she would just crumble into a blob. But now she's every bit as good as sister! 

Both girls are doing great with tummy time. No joke, when I realized I needed to be putting them on their tummies each day I put Zoe down and she popped up on both elbows and stuck her head straight up and smiled. She cracks me up. It took our little sweet blob a few weeks to master tummy time but now she can almost keep up with her sister. 

Nora loves to lay in her activity mat and swat at her toys. She loves all things yellow. She truly favors anything yellow. Its funny. Zoe likes to grab the toys and try to pull them down to put in her mouth. Just today she rolled to her side, picked up her empty bottle and started drinking from it. Looks like its time to make sure Zoe doesn't get her hands on things she can choke on! 

I'm learning that Nora is 100% on track developmentally, but Zoe is pretty ahead of he game in lots of ways. But for a while I worried that Nora was delayed. But shes not...she is just not as strong and motivated as Zoe in lots of ways. And that's ok! They are different people. 

I really can't wait to see if they continue to stay so different. Because right now I feel like they are pretty much opposites! I think Nora would like to spend the day in the sling with me cuddled up singing songs and talking and I think Zoe would like me to push her stroller into the middle of a crowded room and just let her "talk" to everyone! I can't imagine which child is like Lance and which is like me!? ;) 

Anyway, we are seriously enjoying these girls. It's gets better and better each day! We are blessed!!

My big girl at the doctor...poor thing didn't know what was coming :(

My little"er" angel at the doctor...sweet thing! 

Both girls one morning....but this day was rough! Two little fussy girls for some reason this day! 

Zo Zo with Mimi 

The girls playing with the Bradford girls one day!

Nora angel one morning! 

Our Nora Girl

Our sweet little Nora is struggling. She has had dry skin and tummy trouble her whole life and at about 4-6 weeks the doctor suspected she may have a sensitivity to dairy. I cut it all out of my diet and it seemed to help a bit. I was never completely sold however that she was allergic to milk. But who knows! Anyway, her dry skin turned into what looked like a teeny bit of eczema and that teeny bit of eczema tuned into a lot of eczema covering her little body and driving her nuts. 

For weeks now she won't sleep and spends most of the day crying if she isn't being held. It's very hard to hold a baby all day when she has a sweet little sister who needs you too! It's also very hard to know your baby is hurting and not know how to fix it. 

I took her to the doctor yet again because she was screaming inconsolably and pulling on her ears all week. I thought she had an ear infection. Nope. Maybe teething...but who can really tell! Anyway, times like this is would be so helpful for our whole family if sweet Nora could tell us what's wrong. Lance and I are very tired from getting up 5-10 times a night with her. She just lays in our arms and moans! Breaks our hearts!! 

I am considering putting Nora on a hypoallergenic formula the doctor recommended months ago. I have resisted and cut foods from my diet for months hoping something works and she just seems to get fussier with each passing day, and gets more and more rashy, and is now pretty much congested sounding all the time. She has pretty textbook food allergy symptoms. So even though I can pump 20oz at most times in the day....I may be putting Nora on formula. Stinky, expensive formula at that. But I truly don't care one bit at this point. We are just desperate for our little nugget to feel herself again, we are all ready to sleep again and I think Zoe is ready for mommy back too! 

Parenting truly is 1000 times harder than I could have imagined. Having a little helpless human counting on you to make all their decisions and keep them healthy and happy can be hard work at times!! But I'm so thankful to be the mommy of my little fussball and look forward to the day that she is no longer quite such a challenge!! She has SUCH a sweet, easy going personality and whatever is bothering her has made it hard for her to be her happy, sweet little self! Poor angel! 

We will see how her trial week of formula goes! I'm a bit skeptical but we shall see! :) 

Enjoy the Nora pic overload! She really is such a precious little angel & such a blessing to our family! We wouldn't trade her for the world! even when she sleeps 4 hours a night and screams for the better part of the other 20!! Not really, but maybe close! Hehe ;) 

Wide eyes first thing in the morning on her 4 month birthday

Colleague of cuteness!

Listening to mommy act like a crazy lady singing show tunes to get her to smile! 

Sweet angel after her first "sleeping through the night" it probably goes without saying based on this post, but sleep has been seriously regressing!