I am a fixer. I think most moms are. I like things the way I like them, and if they aren't the way I like it I fix them. I feel like as a mom it's a day in and day out cycle of fixing messes and putting things in order just for them to get out of order and need to be put back again and I love it. I absolutely love the day in and day out insanity, I really do! But Nora and her allergy and skin issues have thrown me for a loop. I was given a diagnosis in the form of a long list of allergies, I researched what and how she could eat and put a plan in place, made a budget and was ready to conquer food allergies. And in a way we did. Nora is 100% happier than I have seen her in months. She truly is. She will go entire days now without as much as a wimper until it's bedtime and her sweet little face is flawless! But as far as her body goes I still can't "fix" her. She still scratches all day. I still have to put her in socks and long pants so that she's not re opening old scabs and bleeding. Car rides make me cringe as I can hear her just clawing away at her sweet little legs, and she still wakes up some mornings with the back of her head bleeding from scratching. Just today I went to cut her nails and realized they were just full of blood. It's just starting to totally unnerve me as to how to help this stop. We are on antihistamines, creams, the worlds most healthy, organic, vegan, paleo, I don't even know what to call it diet around here and yet she still scratches and scratches. We've switched detergents and soaps and have tried about a zillion lotions. We have bathed once a week when that's what we were told, bathed daily when that's what we were told. We started whole milk when we realized she was allergic to her formula and stopped milk and switched to coconut when that's was what we thought may be best (even though she is allergic to coconut...long story). We've now talked with our pediatrician, two allergists and are set to see a homeopathic doctor in July. I'm sure I am overreacting some and just need to step away for a minute and take a deep breath, but I'm so fed up with eczema I could scream. And not because it's wearing me out, but because I almost feel like I can feel her pain. I get anxious just watching her all day, wanting so bad to help her!
I know it could be worse. I really do. I see "worse" every Monday when I walk into my office. This is a minor problem. We are very very lucky. But, I just needed to vent and say that today I am stressed. One day we will figure it out. One day I won't have to watch my sweet baby girl scratch her skin off, but unfortunately that day isn't going to be today or tomorrow and I just need to pray for wisdom. So here's to God answering that prayer and me waking up a very wise, refreshed mommy tomorrow!
Her sweet face has been perfect, smooth and so clear since we removed her allergens, mainly wheat & soy. She used to go weeks at a time with a rash around her mouth and since the day after we cut out these allergens she has had this perfect little skin on her perfect little face.
4 comments:
Poor girl and poor mama, that DOES sound stressful! She is so fortunate to have a mom like you that cares so much and is trying to help her… praying you all find a solution sooner rather than later!
It is TOTALLY ok to voice your stress and frustration. I think that is somewhat refreshing honestly because I don't feel like enough moms are really "real" about the various stresses that comes with raising little ones. Ya know? Girl - you know I have my fair share of stress and while it might look different than yours - we both still have it!
Praying for you guys (and for wisdom and patience for you) and also that maybe this next Dr will have some new insight!
I agree with Brittnie, it is refreshing to know that all of us deal with stress and frustrations and the desire to just "fix it" is so very real.
We've dealt with our fair share of allergy issues with Parker too, and while not nearly to the extreme you are, it was still a scary, stressful, and frustrating learning experience.
Thinking of y'all and praying that you will get answers, have peace, and that sweet Nora will be more comfortable.
Oh Kayla, you are such a great mom and God will give you strength like He always does!! So sorry for sweet Nora, but yall will figure things out and maybe it'll get better with age. Allergies are miserable- we have our share too, and it's so challenging. But all these allergies and broken legs are minor when you look at the big picture. Praying for strength and healing!!!
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