Exhaustion

I now have so much respect for all mommies and must say that I now truly know the meaning of the word "exhaustion". I thought I knew before. I thought staying up until 3am in college and then rolling out of bed for an 8am class was exhaustion. I thought getting up at 4am to study in grad school was exhaustion. I thought if I didn't find my bed after a night of less than 5 hours of sleep I was exhausted. Nope. I think I now really know what it means to be so so so tired. Our girls are precious. I mean, they are perfection in my book!! But they are going on 11 weeks and until last night I hadn't gotten more than 4 hours in a row of sleep since they have been born. Most nights would consist of us desperately trying to get Zoe to go down (Nora goes right to sleep) and then around 12-1 once Zoe was out Nora would wake up and scream (not wanting to eat I will add) until about 3am when then Zoe would promptly wake up to eat. So we feed both girls, change them, put them back in their swaddles, and spend until around 4am getting everyone back astleep. Sometimes 4:30. Then we go back to bed, fall astleep and would wait for the 6am starvation cries and I would get back up and do that one myself because Lance leaves at 6:30 and so begins our day! So if you are doing the math that is about 2.5 TOTAL hours of sleep a night. To say I was beginning to lose it is an understatement! We feed the girls at the EXACT same time all day long so we really don't know why the have fallen into such opposite sleeping patterns. However, the light at the end of the tunnel is starting to shine a teensy bit because last night Zoe did her typical stay up until 11:30ish however she then slept until almost 7am!!! And Nora did her typical wake up but not until 3am!! So we slept from about 11:45-3:00 then from about 4-6!! It was heavenly and I have been so happy and hopeful all day!! I just know they are on the cusp on real sleep!! Well they sleep ok now, but I think we may finally be about to see some synchronized sleep!! Here's hoping right!! :)