Then the babies come and reality sets in! No one smiles for a while, and you are awaken out of a foggy 2 hour "nap" by screaming babies while you rush to try to get the life size nursing pillow set up while the screams get louder and louder. We lived that scenario for months and months.
But now, now my dream is happening and I am soaking up every last drop of it! In the mornings I usually see two little people perched up on their elbows just looking around talking. Then, when they see me the giant ear to ear smiles come! It.Is.The.Best.Feeling.In.The.Whole.World!
As exhausted as I still am, thanks to my little night owls, I cant help but smile every morning at 7:30 when my little Nora summons me, followed by her sister 15 minutes later. Now I take chipper little girls out of bed and they play on the floor while I pour my coffee and brush my teeth. We then leisurely get all set up for "breakfast" and it is just so wonderful!
I love love love love it!! I love love love being a mommy. I love rocking my babies to sleep. I love dressing them each day. I love ALL of it! I even find myself smiling as I am washing bottles thinking, "Man, I never thought I would be here....washing bottles for MY two perfect baby girls!" It is still SO hard because I am SO tired and I am beyond ready for them to get into a more predictable nap pattern so we can start to venture past our front porch without the fear of public humiliation. But I will be patient. I will soak in the long naps with my girls in my arms, I will soak up all the smiles, and I will try to freeze time so I never forget our long, quiet days together.
So, when I get stressed that my living room looks like a day care, or that it's 2:30pm and all I have eaten is a spoonful of peanut butter...I will try my best to stop and thank God for the life I am currently living. I have been praying for this life for years, and I will take all of it. Even the bad and annoying and tiring parts!
Thank you God for making me "Mommy"!
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