Cloud 9

I really cannot put into words how much I am on cloud 9!! We got a call from our agency and they told me that we would likely be #1 on the list before the babies were born so even though we won't be able to accept a referral until our bio babies are 6 months old it is pretty much a certain thing that Jane will be soon to follow!! And I'm pretty sure that 6 months will fly by. I have a feeling we may be a tad busy. We won't get her at 6 months but will hopefully be matched at 6 months and then 5 more months or so of paperwork and travel will be required. Our caseworker called us and we joked about how we said we were open to twins from Ethiopia. She said she would wait until I wasn't sleep deprived before she asked me if we were still open to twins from Ethiopia. Ha!!! I kept trying to reword asking Lance if we could take twins from Ethiopia and he kept saying "no". Our conversations went something like is:

Me: "So think we would want to accept a referral for twins?"
Lance: "no"
Me: "Like "no" "no" or "wait and decide later kind of "no"
Lance: "ummm I think like "no" "no".
Me: " we'll you never know....we may think raising twins is so easy that we wanna do it again! Do you see that happening?"
Lance: "We'll I don't see us taking twins if that's what your asking....the chances seem very small"

Oh Lance....love him!! :)

We also had our 12 week ultrasound today. The babies looked perfect!!! It has been soaking in all day how thankful I am and how amazing/crazy this all is!! I have literally been bouncing around all day.

Since we are having twins we go a little more often for ultrasounds and actually start doing the high tech ones at 17 weeks. Meaning we should know the gender of the babies in 5 weeks!!!!!!! We are going to have a twin gender reveal party with 2 cakes and I have literally been dreaming about this event my whole life and never thought it would happen!! I have been asking God for twins since I was 10 years old!!!! Like I said, cloud 9! 

I am also more conscious lately of my uninterrupted time with Lance. We love us some "us" time and I know it's slipping away quickly. Well we probably have 6 months left to be exact. Yikes!!! I don't want the babies to come and feel like I regret not soaking in all our time together. I am so relieved to be about out of the first trimester (I actually don't know technically when that is) and now I'm glad we have several months left. I want to make the most of this time because I really do love our little life together as just the two of us. As much as we have wanted a baby, we have always feared the change in dynamic. And I could be wrong but I think twins and a third shortly after from may change the Agan dynamic up a little bit!!

But we are so thankful!! I feel beyond blessed! I told Lance to tell me if I ever complain because I don't have a thing to complain about on this earth! I am so blessed and cannot believe that God not only chose us to experience this miracle of pregnancy but has also chosen us to understand his love for us even more by letting us experience first hand what he did for us when he adopted us. We get to mold a child into our family just like God molded us into His. We will get to watch all this love unfold in our little family and my heart could burst right out of my chest!!

Ok off to sanitize our house. I forgot to mention that Lance and I had a horrible stomach bug. I mean horrible!! We couldn't walk or move for 24 hours straight. We both went to work Tuesday and both ended up at back at home in bed by noon. Lance actually threw up in his office while leading a conference call. When I got home he was already in bed and in the most pathetic voice he told me this whole story. I really got so tickled I could not stop laughing. We were both laying in bed SO sick....and I really laughed for 15 minutes. Then everytime I thought about it for the rest of the day I laughed. It was good comic relief amidst lots and lots and lots of throwing up! But at least the babies pulled through. After every horrible vomiting spell I would put my hands on my belly and apologize to the poor babies for the torture! Ok off to clean!! Happy November....which is national adoption month! :)/div>