Happy

I love the simplicity of my life right now. I love that my job is to get two sleepy heads up in the morning and make them breakfast. I love reading them stories and playing on the floor. I love getting them dressed, changing diapers and keeping them happy and healthy. I'm not great at it, but I love getting the groceries and making meals. I love trying out things for the girls and go to bed at night thinking up what new foods I can make them the next day. I love getting in my MINIVAN, yes minivan ha, and listening to my praise and worship music while I soak up the babbles and squeaks behind me. I love that so much is "taken" from me each day, that when the girls go down I really appreciate my time to myself. I love flopping down on the couch SO exhausted, but SO fulfilled. I love watching Lance be a Dad. I love that he knows all the words to the baby einstein DVDs and knows just how to get the girls to sleep. I love how he can smile and laugh that we eat dinner at 9pm amidst piles of laundry and toys. I love matching baby clothes, hair bows and baby dolls. I LOVE that when I am without them, although I really enjoy some time away, I feel like part of me is missing. I love their unique personalities. I love seeing their potential and dreaming about what kind of little people they will turn out to be. I love the way being a mom has upped my prayer life like a million percent. I have to pray myself out of bed each morning and specifically ask God to go before me each day because I cannot do this job alone. My dependence on him has become much more tangible now that we have the girls.  

I love being a mommy more than I every thought imaginable. I know life comes and goes in seasons. I know these days will soon seem like a little blip on the radar. I don't want to forget them. I don't want to wish them away, dreaming of a day when the budget won't be so tight and I won't be so tired. 

God has given me such a great gift. I am so thankful. 

I seem to have a hard time remembering the days when I opened the fridge, got a snack and sat and ate it alone! But this picture definitely sums up my days right now. :) 

It happened.

My little Zoe girl has been playing with the idea of walking for about a month now. But she pretty much just stands up and waves at us without moving. Until today. Today my little ZoZo pulled up like normal, looked at me & with her arms out just walked across her play mat with the BIGGEST smile on her face. I was so shocked, and burst into tears. It was one of those ultra proud moments as a mom that caught me off guard. I'm not actually sure why it was so emotional for me. But it was a moment I won't forget. Sitting on my kitchen floor amidst squished peas and tons of sticky toys my precious little angel WALKED! Its flying by at lightening speed  and moments like today make me stop and thank God for these firsts!!

I Love being their mama!!

Can you believe this was my little walker 9 short months ago? Look at them now! Walking pics and videos to come soon! Of course my phone was dead during the excitement!

9 months old!

Our little preshlings are 9 whole months old! Not tiny babes anymore! When did this happen!?

We haven't had their 9 month appointment yet so I don't really know their exact stats...but we had to pop in for ear checks (which was just teething causing ear pulling) and they were both over 22lbs. So yes, they are large and in charge! 

They are pretty much doing the same stuff they were up to at 8 months. They are busy busy busy! The newest thing to change is the speed of their crawling. They are SO fast and SO hard to keep up with. Today for the first time I was changing Zoe and then couldn't hear Nora and had to search for her until I found her under the piano way across the house. Such a scary feeling! But to keep with what ive been doing each month, I'll do a little update on each girlie!

Nora- you are still so loud and so happy. You have sprouted two little bottom teeth this month and are getting one on the top too! Your sleep has changed TONS since those little monsters finally broke through. We also took you off the hypoallergenic, amino acid based formula and you have been in heaven. We are still seeing some signs of milk issues, but not enough to put you back onto the formula. You had started refusing bottles and vomiting with feedings and I couldn't bare to watch it for one more day. So, when the doctor said I could try you on normal (not to mention, cheap) formula I was so happy. You suck down 7oz bottles now & it does my heart good to see you enjoying your bottle again! You have slept through the night now 9 nights in a row! I'm not holding my breath, but I think you have finally decided to sleep! You were definitely getting it, but this consecutive sleeping is just so wonderful. I think it is a combo of your teeth and you finally being full because you don't hate your formula. So yay for you little NorNor! You are a speed crawler and are pulling up and cruising on everything! You are kind of in that "too brave for your skill level" phase that your sister went through big time, and get yourself into lots of bad situations ending in bonking on hard floors or getting stuck under the couch or chairs. You still like to sit and play with one toy at a time, but have been forced to always watch your back because you have a sister that will steal anything you try to enjoy. Seriously. Anything! You sometimes cry when you see her coming which makes me sad, but I also kind of get it! She just wants to play, but we have some work to do I think! You still love to squeal and growl at us. You say "bye bye" when we wave to you and you have said "dada" a few times when daddy gets home from work. Still waiting on the "mama" little toot! You are just such a happy little thing all the time! I really think cutting your teeth has changed you!! Your favorite thing to do right now is to literally follow me around all day. If you arent chasing after me, I can find you standing at the window banging on it and laughing! You get sweeter and sweeter everyday if that's even possible and we love you SO much little NorNor!! 

ZoZo:

I would be lying if I didn't admit that you have been in a bit of a "toot phase" (that's what we decided to call it) this month! You are still as sweet as can be and happy and funny, but you have also started throwing fits. I really was not aware that a 9 month old could throw a fit, but apparently it happens. These "fits" usually revolve around bedtime and you have started flailing and screaming if I try to rock you or feed you. Just last night you literally wiggled yourself off of my lap onto the floor and laid there screaming, arching your back and kicking your legs until I turned your lamp on and it was as if a new baby entered the room. You popped right up, crawled to the chair, and started jumping and laughing and playing! You just didn't like that you were being put to bed. These fits, coupled with the sheer high pitched decibel that you have had since day one, often makes you quite the presence in a room. You have loud and only loud when it comes to your volume. If you are happy you scream, if you are sad/mad you scream too! It's so so funny and so so loud! We notice it when we are in public and you get excited about something and squeal in delight. We are used to it, but notice that every single person in the resteraunt is looking at us! This has happened several times. Or when you get tired at church and start to cry, people always stop and ask if you are ok. It's then that we are reminded that not all babies are as loud as you are! But we wouldn't change your insane volume for anything! You have mastered crawling and have started standing unassisted. You have taken a step or two a couple times, but aren't walking just yet. However, I give it a week. Like your sister, your favorite activity is following me around and pulling on my pants or pulling up on my legs when I am cooking and just standing there behind me for the longest time wrapped around my legs. And just like your sister, your second choice of entertainment is the windows. You have had numerous bad crashes this month and have the bruises to show for it. However, you seem like you have slowed down on the falls lately. Im very relieved! You say "mama" all day. It's your favorite thing and you really do just crawl around all day saying "mamama". You say it to me, but you also say it to daddy or Mimi or your sister or to no one. It's pretty cute! You will wave "hi" and sometimes say "hi". You are a talker and are always making some kind of noise. However, it's amazing how you will sit quietly in church for an hour! You and your sister do awesome at church! Zoe, you are full of life and energy & although I think you may give us a run for our money, we wouldn't change a thing about you! We love you Zoester toaster!! 

So that's really all for now. I feel like each month it gets easier and easier, but this new level of complete mobility is just crazy! I am chasing babies around all day and trying to keep little crazy dare devils alive can be hard work! But it truly does get better and better with each passing day. I don't even like to think that my precious, tiny little babies will be walking and talking and ONE soon!! It's just crazy!! We couldn't feel more blessed if we tired! Truly, I thank God for the gift of these two little angels that he loaned me to raise every day!! Can't wait, even though it makes me want to cry, to see what the next few months hold! 

Our Adoption

I wanted to post a quick update on some adoption stuff. As many people have probably heard, there were lots of rumors about adoptions in Ethiopia shutting down. As far as I understand this is all just a rumor and adoptions are still up and running. However, there has been a lot of talk about social media and privacy issues concerning adoption. We have decided that instead of making our blog private or worrying about accidentally posting something that could potentially harm the adoption process for ourselves or others, we are just going to keep "adoption talk" a face to face conversation for now and not post about it in a public forum.

We SO appreciate the crazy huge support of others and know that people want to follow along in the journey. But as of now we are still on hold in the process and will be waiting a bit longer to become "active" again. After that, we really have no idea of a timeline, as new laws and process have changed things in Ethiopia. But YES we are still adopting, YES it will still be a little girl, YES we still need your prayers, and YES we would be happy to answer any questions face to face or on the phone/email about adoption in general.

I have met so many people and have the privilege of helping others start their own adoption journey through this social media network. So please still contact us if you have questions about adoption and PLEASE keep our family in your prayers as we continue to wait on God's perfect timing to add a third precious daughter to our little family. This blog will continue to be filled with the happenings of our two little nuggets & once we have our third little nugget home she will fill these pages too!! :)

***and side note to my fellow adoptive/waiting family friends...I know this has been a hot topic and isn't for everyone. I know there is a "right" way to document your adoption journey online but I would surely mess it up and that's why we have decided to stop blogging/facebook posting about it. :)

 

I was trying to post a recent pic of the girls and this one came up. I thought I would leave it! This is day one of their precious little lives! Crazy crazy the change...the one below was taken today....Nora is right and Zoe left on top and its swapped on the bottom pic. :)

8 months

I'm a few late....but the girls are 8 months old! This month has for sure been the best one yet!! The first half of month 7 was rough. Lots of fussiness and sleeplessness and just generally a tough transitional type of month. Month 8 however, has brought much needed sleep, crawling, pulling up, cruising, lots and lots of laughing, lots of eating, lots of playing and just lots of fun! 

Nora:

You started crawling last month and went from no crawling to perfect crawling overnight. It was crazy. You love to pull up on the couch or ottoman. Your most favorite activity is standing at your little activity gym toy and pushing all the buttons. You really get toys, and get what they do. You pay really close attention to things and I really think you understand how a lot of toys work. You also have a great memory! Just the other day, while I was under piles of adoption reading, I let you play in the refrigerator for a long time! The next morning as I was carrying you into the living room you were craining your neck searching for the fridge and the second I put you down you crawled over and went right to the door and started trying to get in! You are more of a laid back player than your sister and will stick with the same activity for some time before moving on. You have a passion for puffs. You would munch on them all day. You are a very efficient eater, which is evidenced by your almost 21 lb self, and have mastered the little pincer grasps to get food in. We've tried pretty much every food with you besides dairy and you have been doing great. We have been slowly upping your dinner to more grown up foods and you do really well. The other night when you were watching TV and eating black beans and rotisserie chicken I really had to take a step back and let the bigness of you soak in! You were not a big fan of babbling consonant sounds at 7 months, your speech pathologist mommy tried very hard to just roll with it, but I would be lying if I didn't admit that it was really bothering me! Your daddy liked to make fun of me and come home at night and ask how we were doing on our consonants for the day. But now you are babbling up a storm! You are generally just really loud actually. Your current fav string of sounds to make is "mamama" and although I know you have no idea what that means yet, I love to hear it! You have started sleeping through the night more often than not. Well, if we do a "dream feed" you will sleep through the night and if we don't you won't. But really, I will take it. Your sleep up until lately was not great. You are seriously on the brink of your two bottom teeth coming in. I feel like you have been trying to get those teeth for 4 months. But lately your gums are super swollen and you are permanently just chewing on your bottom lip which is just what your sis did right before hers made an appearance! You are super smiley and happy and such a pleasant little person. However you definitely continue to be exponentially more high maintenance than your sister. You only like taking bottles before naps or at bedtime. You have no interest in taking a bottle if it's not right before sleep. I can pull this off all feedings except the one around 4-4:30. You have been know to flail and scream and gag on occasion.....but 30 minutes later you act as though you have been starving and suck down 6oz. Very strange. You also go down very easily each night at 6pm and take a 4oz bottle. However, you always wake up around 7pm and want the remaining 2 oz. You would scream for hours if we didn't go in and give you this tiny bottle. You are then out for the night. Again, very strange! Come to think about it, you will never finish a bottle unless we are in your room. But ya know, oh well I suppose. You are also not one that can drift to sleep. If you get tired in the car or on a walk we will hear about it until you find your bed. You nap every day at 9 & 1. I can count on it. It's great! You are just the best, cutest, chunkiest, smiliest little baby and we love you more and more each day!! Your person is really starting to show and as far as I can tell you are going to be a really really sweet little girl, with some high maintenance tendencies. We love you baby Nor Nor!

ZoZo:

You are a person with places to go and things to see! You are all over the place. Your are an awesome crawler, but spend most of your time on your feet cruising all around the house. Just today I was having coffee with a friend in the living room and looked over and you were just standing there. I just looked at you confused for a second and then you crawled away like normal. About 15 minutes later you did it again and then took a couple steps. I was shocked and can't believe how close you seem to walking! You now pull up on the ottoman and hold on with one hand while you bend down to get your toys off the floor. It's so big girl"ish" to me! You have masterd opening cabinets and are still really tall so you can pull every thing off the top of our tables. We have had a couple broken things and have now cleared everything off everything! Everyday I find you somewhere that isn't really all that safe and continue to realize our house isn't as "baby proof" as I thought. We will be really working on that soon! You are really hyper and never stop. This is new. It's like you all of a sudden realized this big giant world around you and are just too thrilled about it to sit still. Twice I have found you in the fire place eating soot. Yes, our ottoman now permanently lives in front of the fire place. You love peek a boo and crack up laughing each time. I love to see you laugh and see your little bottom teeth! You have also started waving at everyone you see and saying "hi". Well more like, "haaaa" but you say it the same way every time and only when you are waving. I honestly kind if think it's a real word. Which is about right for you because you seem to want to try to stop being a baby earlier than you are supposed to...and although we are all very amused by you, I would like you to slow down! You are still a great sleeper, you always have been, but lately have been waking up some and standing up in your crib peeking over the top. I think you are just trying out your new skills and very aware that we are out in the living room without you. We have been ignoring you some and it kills me. Lately when I go get you from your nap you are usually sitting up in your crib just looking at me like "hello I've been up for a while mom". You kind of look like a little prisoner and not a baby the way you sit in the corner pouting! You are a talker and are always giving us all kinds of baby talk. You say "mama" and "dada" too and I can't wait until you know what those words mean! You are super easy with feeding and sleeping and napping. You will take a bottle anywhere and don't really need to be rocked too long to calm down. I love you and your sis equally, but I'm glad you are a bit easier! Your only hard habit is that you have some for real separation anxiety. You really don't like me leaving your side at all. It can make a mamma tired....but I sure do love snuggling you and your sis! You have become a much bigger fan of solid foods and are still perfecting the art of using your fingers the right way. You still wear a lot of your food. So far the only food you seemed to love and eat up in a minute flag was chicken and bananas that I just boiled and shredded up. We couldn't believe how you were shoveling it in! Zoester....you are awesome and we love you so much!! 

Little girlfriends we love you so much and cannot believe how big you are starting to seem!! We are so blessed by you and are so glad you are happy & healthy!!

Sink bath time 

Nora watching baby Einstein from her exersaucer 

Cutie patoots

Nora loving life and Zoe annoyed at people talking to her

The girls chasing me as I try to get out the door to unload the car

Black bean face

My tall angel girl 

More crawling practice 

Other black bean face

Max having a sleep over! He told Betho he lubed living at our house!

Naked fatties

My morning coffee audience 

A day in the life...

*****disclaimer....this is LONG and probably boring to 99.99% of readers. It's for me! 

A twin mom friend of mine did a "day in the life of a working mom of twins" post so I thought I'd do a day in the life of a stay-at-home mom of twins post. I do work Monday and Tuesday evenings, however I did the math and spend a total of 4% of my week away from the girls. So yes, I am claiming SAHM. :)

-Everyday I arise between 5:00-5:30 and give Zoe a bottle. It's the rare morning that she doesn't want to eat around 5am. I then, in an attempt to start the day off well with schedules, go in and feed Nora a bottle too. Lance gets up at 5:45 for work, so if they wake up close to his scheduled wake up time I usually toss him a bottle and have him go feed one. It's pretty funny each morning because he is always SO out of it and usually makes it to the kitchen with a bottle and then says something along the lines of "ok, now what am I doing and who am I feeding?"

-I then get back in bed until around 6:30am when I am summoned by one or both girlies. They usually wake up within about 20 minutes of each other. Nora is starting (knock on wood) to finally stop waking up at night so the mornings are a bit less treacherous now that she has slept through the night recently.

-Once the girls are up I change their diapers, put down a quilt for them to play on and get out their toys for the morning. Once they are happily playing I usually get myself a cup of coffee and sometimes a bowl of cereal. It's pretty funny lately however, because they are both crawling and pulling up on everything so my days of putting them in one spot and finishing a meal are pretty much over. So I usually get a few sips of coffee and cereal and am left with a half cold cup of coffee and soggy bowl of cereal after I am done chasing people, picking up knocked over jars of puffs, comforting both girls over and over after bumping their heads after attempting to pull up on the ottoman or crawling full speed ahead into a bar stool and changing a few diapers in between!

-We play pretty hard until about 7:30 and then we do breakfast. I usually feed them bananas or a squeezie with mixed fruit. I am now suspecting that Nora is allergic to gluten...add it to the list....and have stopped doing as much oatmeal. I did however find some regular oatmeal that doesn't have any of her suspected allergies and she did great. Zoe not so much, but that's ok.

-After breakfast we play some more and around 8:45 we do bottles and at 9am we do naps. Nap time can go one of two ways at our house. On a lucky day I can feed the girls and leave the less tired, more chipper, baby in the living room in an exersaucer or pack n play while I put the other down. But on the not so lucky days the baby left in the living room screams and screams until I get them and I am usually rocking one baby while another is crawling at my feet and often crawling right under the rocker and getting pinched and screaming more! It's quite the sight to see. Also, my sweet little Nora Beth doesn't really like to take a bottle anywhere but in her room in the dark with her sound machine on (ummm, yes she is a bit high maintenance) so I often have to feed her in her room which is way to long to keep Zoe alone so that's where the baby crawling all over the floor in the dark comes into play!

-The girls are napping champs and are usually both asleep by 9:05 and sleep until around 10:30, sometimes 11. On Monday  & Tuesday I am forced to be responsible and usually wash bottles and get everything ready for Betho's house Monday or my mom Tuesday and then get ready for work. I don't leave until 2pm, but it's usually my only down time. On Wed-Fri, I'm not gonna lie...this is the most glorious time of the day. I usually do a super quick once over of the house, pick up diapers and laundry and such, wash a bottle or two, and if it's been a bad night I get in our guest bed and go to sleep. This room is by the girls so I don't have to mess with the monitor. That's a whole other story, but Im not a huge fan of baby monitors. I just don't need to hear every peep! Anyway, on days when I am a bit more rested I usually just sit on the couch and watch tv and eat breakfast. Maybe check Facebook and Instagram for a minute and just kind of decompress. Oh, this is usually when I get out of my pajamas and brush my teeth for the day too! Ha!

-when the girls get up we play until about 11 and then do lunch. I feed them fruit or whatever I have thrown together the day before and they always gobble it right up.

-I then clean them off, wipe down all the highchairs and we play some more. We do a lot of playing if you can't tell. They love to read books and LOVE to play rough and be thrown up in the air or tickled. So we do a lot of that!

-If I have any laundry that needs to be done I usually try to do it while they are up so I'm not too loud while they are sleeping. Luckily, Lance does most of the laundry so I usually am just in charge of getting the dirty clothes to the laundry room and he washes everything in the evening. I am a pretty organized person with a pretty clean house but I am a failure 100% in life when it comes to laundry. I live out of piles. I actually had the thought that I have to get better before I raise three girls who will never know how to follow through with laundry. I will pretty much do ANYTHING else over hanging item after item up in the closet. I just really cannot do it. If you could only see my closet. It is a scary place.

 -At 12:30 pm we do bottles again and get ready for afternoon naps. This nap tends to be easier. Not sure why. They will usually sleep from about 1-2:30 but sometimes it's just form 1-2. This is when I do a for real once over of the disaster that we spent the morning making. I usually spend quite a bit of time crawling on my hands and knees scrubbing carrots off the floor, scrubbing the baby food maker, washing bottles, putting the toys in the bins, throwing away stray diapers, and I usually grab a little lunch too. On my work days I leave after I put them down for naps and it's really nice. I always go get a giant diet coke and something to eat and sit in my car for 15 minutes in silence and relax. On my non work days I usually get done cleaning stuff up just in time for one to wake up. 

 -Lately, I have been referring to the hours spent after this nap until bedtime as the "dark hours". I think it is her teeth, but Nora seems to only last until about 4pm and she is SUCH a grump until bedtime. She will sometimes take a short nap at 4 which helps, but usually she is just a bit of a toot until bed. Zoe does ok, but after about 4pm only wants to be held too so I kind of feel like I am being mauled by babies for the entire afternoon. However, I sure do love those little grouchy toots!

 -around 4:00pm they take another bottle and we usually go on an outing real quick or I load them up in the stroller and we go on a nice long walk. I have found that if we don't get out and do something this time of day it's kinda rough on everyone. Mainly me!

 -we get back at 5pm usually and start the bedtime routine. I usually feed them dinner, oatmeal and fruit, and then wash them off in the sink. We then do lotion and Jammie's and I get their bottles ready. Most nights I try to keep them happy until 6:00 or 6:15 when Lance gets home so he can help with bed. However, it's the rare night that they can make it happily until 6:15 and I usually have to let one scream while I put the more tired one down. It's not my favorite part of the day. The morning nap scenario usually replays in the evenings. But if I am on top of things I can usually start bottles at 5:30 and then I usually leave a couple ounces in each bottle since they are used to finishing their bottles in their rooms at night and leave one in the living room, contained of course, and do a quick version of bedtime with the first baby (e.g., rocking with their bottle and lovie in their room) and then come back out and get the next baby and get her down. Lance usually gets home in time to save the poor abandoned child alone crying in the living room so that's good. I usually text him on his drive home and tell him who needs to be put down, and where he can locate the bottle and when I get done with baby one he is usually already rocking baby two. 

 -we then clean up from the afternoon mess. We call it "reset" and then luckily have from about 6:30 on to ourselves. It's a great time of the day and we eat dinner and hang out and get things done. The early morning can be downright painful, but having the evenings to do whatever we want with is great. Well on weekdays, having babies who go to bed at 5:45 can kind of kill your social life on the weekends. But honestly, up until pretty recently, we were too tired to do much anyway! Thanks to Nora finally deciding to sleep, we are feeling more and more functional these days! :) 

Our days are long. But I truly could not imagine a more full, blessed life if I tired. Sure, I wish Lance didn't have to work as much and some days I wish I had a live in nanny to help me (ha!), but EVERY single day when I am rocking my girls to sleep I am overcome with so much joy I feel like a could burst! I am still in awe of this gift. I feel so blessed to have precious, perfect babies and that I get to rock a baby to sleep 6 times a day! Not many people get to do that and I am SO SO happy I do!! I am still not squeezing into my size 4 jeans and still have bags under my eyes everyday and let's not even get started on the state of my eyebrows or hair....but my heart is full 100% of the time and for that I don't think I will ever stop thanking God!! 

Jane.

I thought I would post my current thoughts on our adoption. It helps me to blog about feelings/fears and just general thoughts currently bouncing around in my brain from time to time.

Honestly, my feelings towards our adoption are still wonderful! Do I yawn just thinking of waking up multiple times a night when I just started getting some, key word some, sleep? Yes! Do I sometimes cringe just a tad at the thought of being driven back into our home for the bonding period after finally being able to comfortably venture out with my current two? Absolutely! Do I fear the change in dynamic? For sure! Do I worry about the unknown, genetic differences, and lack of medical history or knowledge? Sometimes I still do.

But as I was expressing this to Lance tonight we were going through scenarios of timelines and what it will look like with Z & N not being only children, and just talking through fears and concerns we couldn't stop smiling when we thought about HER! I would be straight up lying if I said having these two baby girls in my life hasn't made the adoption a bit more scary. It's been a huge mental change, requiring me to seriously have to stop and wrap my mind around this reality, 3 kids, not just 1! Two babies very very set in a routine and schedule and none to fond of their mom even walking into the other room. Will there be enough of me for all of them? I am responsible for protecting them. How will this affect them? It was one thing for Lance and I to dive into this, but they didn't have a say. But when we talk about this baby girl, she is ours. She is a part of us. I can't really describe it. But as scary as it can seem at times, it doesn't compare to how scary it seems NOT to get her.

This is a true fact. As I was praying through this today,  I asked God to show me what I needed to see. To give me encouragement and confidence in this choice we made so long ago. I opened up my bible and this was starting me in the face, highlighted in red. Not bookmarked, nothing. Ah....thank you Jesus. :)

John 14:15-21 NIV
 "If you love me, you will obey what I command. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever- the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him."

Chills.....yes. I needed this reminder. We are simply obeying what God has commanded of us. Plain and simple that is it. We are obeying God. We love God, and this was commanded of us. We make things so hard from time to time. But without fail, Gods word simplifies it. He makes it easy to understand and we make it hard.

The verse that also comes to mind is......"Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In ALL your ways acknowledge him and He will make your paths straight."

So I will leave this up to God. He will sort it out. On my end, I will be waiting until I get to sleep through the night before bringing a third into the mix. I'm talking to YOU Nora Beth! ;) 

Can't wait....all in good time that is......to add our precious, prayed for, Already adored, little Jane to our family.