Her little face

It's no surprise that I am excited about our adoption. I will never forget Sept. 30 when I pushed "submit" on the computer screen, officially saying we were beginning the journey. We were then given our checklist, well I use that word lightly because this "checklist" filled an entire binder, and we were on our way. I was a crazy person and was up until 2 am for a month straight getting everything in order FAST, and was so happy to be doing it!!! We ran around Houston for a couple months getting everything ready and then were a WAITING FAMILY!! We were officially waiting for her!!

6 months has past since we were finally on the waiting list and not much happens anymore to keep adoption at the front of our minds. All we can do is wait. As hard as waiting can be, each month that passes I get more and more excited and this month in particular I think I could burst with excitement!!! Tonight I am laying awake thinking about her little face. Thinking about that precious little brown face that I will get to kiss everyday. That little face that will be my DAUGHTER. That perfect little face that we will take a 1,000 pictures of that will be plastered all over all of our walls. That little face that will always remind us just how much God loves us and just how blessed we are. That little face that will hopefully always remind us that orphans are Gods children and we are here to be Jesus to them. I know all parents say this, but I just know that little face is going to change a lot of lives. I know that because we haven't even met her yet and she has changed our lives. That little face has taught us how to trust God, love others, have patience, and pray like never before. That little face has opened our eyes to the need to step outside our "normal" with a cheerful heart. That little face is already changing our lives and I can't wait until she is here in the flesh sitting in my living room!

I often spend hours daydreaming about doing her hair and taking her to church for the first time. Watching her open up her Christmas presents and playing with her cousins. All those little things parents look forward to. But tonight all I can think about is that little face. That tiny slice of perfection that God is going to bless us with when the time is right! I can ramble on so I will leave it at this.

This makes me "get" adoption more than any other verse. Well for today at least. I am very scattered with my bible reading and am constantly floored with new revelations! :)

"For those who are led by the spirit of God are the children of God. The spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father." The spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are children then we are heirs-heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share his sufferings in order that we may also share his glory."

Romans 8: 14-17

God is saying here that through accepting him and sharing in his suffering we receive his spirit. By this we are made his child! Equal to his son! But this is not just any son. This is JESUS! We are now the sons and daughters of God! Let that soak in. It is pretty amazing. I believe that God is wanting us to mirror this behavior in our own lives. Where would be be without our father in heaven? If God wouldn't have so graciously accepted us we would be orphans. We would be aimless and without purpose.

I do not believe that God NEEDS us to watch over orphans in order for them to have a father. They already have their one true Father. I think he is allowing us to engage in this act of love because he knows it will bring us joy and a deeper understanding of his love for us. What better way to understand Gods love than to do your best to emulate it?

Very very humbled with this gift that hasn't even made it into our arms yet, but has completely changed us! I will go to bed tonight praying for that perfect little face!! :)