Waiting

I read this on a friends blog today:

"When you decided to wait for the best, did you think that waiting would be fun? Did you think that your faith would not be tested? When you decided to take the narrow path, did no one warn you that difficulties, hardship, and tears would be part of the journey, and that you would often face rejection from others and be forced to walk alone? My daughter, that which you wait for the longest you treasure the most, and through much struggle the prize is won." — Sarah Mally (Before You Meet Prince Charming: A Guide to Radiant Purity)

I read this today and although I know this is a passage aimed at addressing waiting for a "mate" it really spoke to me about our wait for our Jane. It gently reminded me that we did choose this road, well we chose go follow Gods will, and we will treasure her more than anything once she is in our arms.

On that note, let me assure you that I DO not have it all together in this wait! I had a wise friend tell me that once you start the adoption process Satan tries to attack you constantly. My naive self took the advice but left thinking "I am a pretty together person who is definitely not at risk of Satan attacking me. That is a fear that people with weak faith need to fear". Let me tell you my friends, the second you start thinking that you may as well throw a party and invite Satan as the guest of honor! Seriously.

There has been some definite spiritual warfare around here lately but we are on the other end now and I am honestly kind of glad my faith was put to the test. I did NOT rise to the occasion. Not at all. It was a good wake up call for me! :)

Sometimes I wonder what is going on in Africa when we seem to be having a hard time here. I wonder if our little Jane was born or if her mom just decided she couldn't care for her. I often wonder if Satan sees the nearness of one of "the least of these" finding a home and a family and tries to pull out all the stops to keep her from coming home.

Who knows. But one day I sure do have a lot of questions for God. On a funny note, every black little girl that walks into my office now may as well be our Jane Jordan. I just stare at their beautiful little brown skin and big eyes and want to squeeze them. I don't of course. Well, maybe I do. Hehe

Ok, happy Thursday. I am so glad to be wrapping up this work week and definitely like my new job! :)